Hillary Clinton v Donald Trump on Disability Policy

Read my latest and final piece on disability policy during this election. A line-up of the two presidential candidates:

Political Opinion Piece: Which Candidate Will Prioritize Disability Policy

Thank You, Donald Trump, for Giving Me the Courage to Come Forward with My Sexual Assaults

As much as I hate to do this, I have to thank Donald Trump. Thanks to the #TrumpTapes released last Friday, where he admits to sexually assaulting women because his celebrity status entitles him to do so, millions of women have come forward with their stories of sexual assault and shirking the shame that accompanies the assaults. And I am one of them. 
For years, I kept silent about the multiple times I have been sexually assaulted by men…until this year. I came out publicly as a victim just a few weeks ago when I spoke to the North Carolina Democratic Party State Executive Committee about disability rights and policy. In doing so, I informed the party, when discussing criminal justice, that 80% of disabled women are sexually assaulted, many of which have been victimized on multiple occasions. I followed that fact up with the unfortunate truth that I am part of that statistic. My voice couldn’t help but to crack, and many audience members teared up. However, I have never publicly talked about those incidents in detail until the Republican nominee for President of the United States, Donald J. Trump, was caught on a live mic bragging about sexually assaulting women. And for that shirking of burden and shame, I am grateful. 

Americans need to understand just how serious and real sexual assault is and should never be something, about which to brag. Therefore, I am going public with the dreadful assaults I endured that had Donald Trump committed, he would’ve bragged about:

_________________________________________________________________________________

The first time, I was five. A step-family member exposed himself in my face and asked what I thought of it. And that wasn’t the only time. I was so young that I never even understood how terrible and abusive it was. So I never told my mother until I was an adult. He, too, like Trump, felt entitled to sexually abuse a girl, while professing himself to be a devout Christian. 

_________________________________________________________________________________

Several years later in life, while in high school and a young developing woman, I visited the eye doctor. Diligently studying 15 hours a day took a toll on my distant vision. So I needed glasses. The ophthalmologist, during the entire eye exam, pressed his genitals on my leg and touched my thigh with his hand. 

_________________________________________________________________________________

Neither of those incidents compare, however, to what I endured in law school. On Valentine’s Day, I spent the day protesting the holiday with my best friend, as both of us were single. He drank copious amounts of wine (3 bottles, to be exact). So, to protect him, I permitted him to sleep over, rather than drive home drunk. I went to sleep, only to wake up to him taking off my clothes and ultimately raping me. Despite saying “no” repeatedly, he continued, and due to my disability, I couldn’t fight back. After it was over, he permitted me to get up and go to the bathroom to rinse the blood off, but I had to return to my blood soaked bed and re-lie in those sheets, due to my inability to change my own bedding. After he left, in shock, I called my classmate and girl friend, barely able to utter the words, asked her if she could come over and help me change and wash my bedding. She rushed over and took the bedding off as quickly as possible, but the beautiful silk pillow my mother made for me was ruined from blood that could never be removed. 

I suffered from terrible PTSD, which according to Donald Trump must’ve been due to being weak, and couldn’t bring myself to go to a doctor for three days, as the emotional pain was far worse than the physical pain. The exam was almost as bad as the rape. It was like reliving the assault all over again, as is every cervical exam since. The lacerations were still there, and they healed relatively quickly. But the emotional scars will likely never heal. 

_____________________________________________________________________________________

Several years later, I moved to NYC and then Israel, where I had unfamiliar men in both places grope me, lick me, rub me, make kissing sounds at me, stalk me, follow me home in their cars or on the subway. But the worst offense is when, one night, I was “walking” home late at night in Jerusalem, because the last bus home was inaccessible. The walk was an hour walk, it was midnight, and my battery was dangerously low. I called my friends for desperate help, but finding an accessible vehicle, that late at night seemed unlikely. An ultra orthodox man with a beard, dressed in a white shirt and black pants, tzit tzit exposed, in a white bread truck-like vehicle stopped and offered to help me home. I explained to him in my broken Hebrew that it wasn’t possible, because I couldn’t access any vehicle without a lift or ramp, but thanked him for the offer. He said excitedly that he had one. As a fellow religious Jew, I trusted him and thanked God for sending an angel. It was conceivable to me that he had some sort of loading ramp, due to the shape of his vehicle. So, he told me to just meet him in the adjacent alley. And I complied. 

He parked and met me as I was going toward his car. But when he reached me, he immediately began rubbing my back. I knew instantly that I was in danger, and the apparent angel was a wolf in sheep’s clothing. Religious men are forbidden by Jewish law to touch women except their wives. In my broken Hebrew I kept saying “no” and “don’t touch,” but he didn’t obey. He proceeded to take my belongings away from me, kiss, lick and suck on my neck, tried kissing my mouth, akin to Trump’s admitted behavior, and then put his hands up my skirt (which I strictly wore for religious purposes). 

I tried to move my chair with the joystick, but he grabbed my hand and kept me from doing so. Again my disability kept me from fighting back. But I had mental strength. I kept telling him that my friends were coming to pick me up and were on their way. He responded by reaching to pick me up out of my chair like a child, in an attempt to kidnap and rape me. I grabbed my joystick and spun my chair in the opposite direction, which made him lose his balance and stumble. At that very moment, God answered my prayers and a car approached, in this, otherwise, empty part of the city at night, and I lied and said, “there are my friends!” He ran to his truck and raced away from the crime scene. 

My friends were indeed coming in an ambulance, but I didn’t know when they would arrive, and I was terrified he would return beforehand. The two minutes that passed before the ambulance arrived, right as the predator did, in fact, return, I shook in terror. When they arrived, they saw me and knew with a simple glance that something terrible occurred. 

This time, I reported it to the police, but they refused to investigate. Even though he touched my chair, laptop and handbag, all of which he could’ve left fingerprints, they refused to brush for them. They made me come to the precinct several days later to make an official report and then told me they could do nothing because I didn’t have the wherewithal to get his license plate number while he was speeding away from the crime scene. 

The next few weeks were emotional torture. I was terrified to go outside. When I did, I would see him everywhere. Every man with a white shirt, black pants and a beard terrified me and sent me rushing home, often preventing me from attending rape counseling. I suffered from countless panic attacks, and soon thereafter, I decided to never wear skirts again, breaking Jewish laws of modesty for my own safety. 

___________________________________________________________________________________

I had hoped that was the end of my victimization, but another was yet to come. Several years later, in North Carolina, at Charlotte’s downtown CMC hospital, I was severely ill, suffering from sepsis, and an Emergency Room tech transported me to my admission room. Once we arrived, he transferred me to the other bed and then reached under my gown, right in front of my mother, and groped my left breast. I was so sick that my fever was 104 and my heart rate was 136. I was fighting for my life and in no condition to report a sexual assault. But once I was no longer septic, I told a nurse. The hospital investigators came to my room and ultimately decided that I was lying because I didn’t immediately report and there had never been a report against him like that before. And the police took their word. He, like, Donald Trump, felt entitled to grab my “t*t,” as our Republican nominee calls them. 

____________________________________________________________________________________

The media’s focus on the Trump Tapes is about his lewd comments and language, and they entirely miss the point. Donald Trump is admitting to committing sexual assault. He shouldn’t be our next President. He should, instead, be on the sex offender’s registry. If he weren’t a rich, privileged white man, he would be. Rather, he is a major party’s nominee for POTUS. 

In the face of a decision between a sexual predator, who assaults, belittles, insults and gropes women, and the potential first female president who is the most qualified person ever to run for the office of POTUS, I can affirmatively say #ImWithHer. 

To those who believe his comments were, indeed, “locker room banter” where “boys will be boys”: you are perpetuating the rape culture that is so prevalent in this country and abroad. No man, regardless of his celebrity status, is entitled to grab a woman’s crotch or kiss her without prior consent, let alone brag about it while mic’ed for a televised show. 

To those who say Trump’s comments are no worse than singing along to lewd lyrics: this is such a false equivalency, and it’s offensive to women, like me, who have been sexually assaulted. Repeating lyrics have nothing to do with your own actions, let alone akin to bragging of committing sex crimes against women.

To those comparing Trump’s pride in assaulting women to Bill Clinton’s affairs: again, this is another false equivalency. Bill’s affairs were consensual. Infidelity does not sexual assault make. And even if it did, Bill Clinton is not on the ticket! Women are not an extension of their husbands anymore. You are making women empathize with and relate to Hillary more than ever. 

Trump’s decision to compare his crimes to Bill’s indiscretions is such a losing strategy when women make up more than a majority of the electorate. And his perpetual blame game, in this instance, excuses rape and rape culture. I implore every woman, every father to daughters or with a mother, every devout religious person, to think about what message it sends to the women of this country and the world to elect a sexual predator to be the leader of the free world. You have the chance to come forward against sexual assault and a man who boasts of committing the crimes, of which I was a victim…a chance to tell your children that you stopped a sex offender from ruling this country. A vote for Trump is tantamount to a vote for condoning rape. This is the antithesis of the family values, to which the Republican Party so staunchly cling. 

__________________________________________________________________________________

 Please, Dump Trump, end our country’s pervasive rape culture, and simply thank him, as I have, for bringing national attention to sexual assault. 

The Intersectionality of Disability and Being #StrongerTogether

image.jpeg

Recently, North Carolina, my home state, passed HB2 (House Bill 2, aka “the bathroom bill,” aka “Hate Bill 2”). The main portion of the bill, which has been politicized, is the bathroom portion of the bill, which requires people to use the bathroom of the gender listed on their birth certificate. This was in response to a Charlotte ordinance allowing transgender people to use the bathroom of the gender with which they identify.
However, this bill goes far beyond refusing to let transgender people use the bathroom of their choice. The bill reversed every anti- discrimination law ever passed in the state of NC, took away small government’s right to legislate and disallowed city and local ordinances from raising the minimum wage, even when those cities are far more expensive to live in. Thus, as a result of HB2, it is now legal under NC state law to discriminate against someone for his race, national origin, religion, color, sexual orientation, gender, gender identity, age, and disability.
———————————————————————————–
So, why is it, then, that it seems that the disability community isn’t joining the battle against HB2 the way we’ve seen the LGBTQ and black community do so? Conversely, why doesn’t the LGBTQ, black and other minority groups join in our battles for equality? I feel there are a few different reasons behind this.
First, the disability community, sadly, is very divided and, thus, politically weaker.

Second, other minorities don’t consider us a minority and often oust us from their fight, as we aren’t considered minorities and viewed as members of the white majority.

Third, our disabilities often make organizing and hitting the pavement to protest more difficult than other minorities.

And, finally, our fight is interpreted as one of accessibility alone, as most people don’t realize just how much animosity the disability community is subjected to by non-disabled people.

———————————————————————
The disability community makes up 20% of the population, but we come in all shades and varieties. Some of us are mobility impaired, like me, and often identify as disabled. Some are deaf or hard of hearing, blind or visually impaired, autistic, intellectually disabled, mentally ill, or chronically ill with pain or GI conditions, and these people often don’t even identify as disabled.
————————————————————————
Beyond our disability needs, we are further divided by intersectionality. This brings me to my second point. The non-disabled community often sees the disability community as straight white Christians with disabilities and, thus, part of the majority. We are, decidedly, not. Disability impacts every race, religion, and sexual orientation. We often identify first as these minorities and disabled somewhere later or not at all. I, for example, identify first as being Jewish, and some of my closest disabled friends identify first as gay or transgender.
Minorities must join together and build powerful coalitions and allow our allies to join our fight. Hillary Clinton’s new slogan, “Stronger Together” is so true, and we must always remember this.
——————————————————————-
Finally, non-disabled people think disability discrimination is nothing more than a lack of accessibility and, thus, our plight isn’t as sympathetic. But, this is far from the case. The congressional history of the Americans with Disabilities Act is filled with gut-wrenching stories of people with disabilities being thrown out of movie theaters and restaurants because the other patrons didn’t want to be forced to look at us – and this still happens today. We also deal with high levels of violence, but no one knows about it. Disabled prisoners, like Freddie Gray (developmental disabilities), Sandra Bland (Epilsepsy) and Brian Sterner, (who was thrown from his wheelchair by police who thought he was faking his disability), died or were killed while in police custody. In fact, 50% of police brutality killings involve people with disabilities.
—————————————————————————————
Perhaps the one person who can unite us all, as she has heard our voice, is Hillary Clinton, the first woman ever to be presumptively nominated by a major political party for the position of President of the United States. She has done so well at including people with disabilities by embracing our issues, taking them on as her own, saying “disability rights are a human right,” and including us in every speech.
We should join forces with her and let her proverbially stand up for those of us who can’t literally stand up ourselves.
About the author:


Ariella Barker, Esq. received her BBA and JD from Emory University. She worked for many years representing the City of NY and Mayor Bloomberg in employment discrimination lawsuits. She was Ms. Wheelchair NC 2014. After writing the powerful essay Berned by Bernie. Ariella now supports the Clinton Campaign. Follow her Facebook.
This piece is a compilation from her original pice, entitled “Disability Rights is a Human Right” published on Push Living at pushliving.com/…

Politicizing the Opioid Epidemic at the Expense of Chronic Pain Sufferers

On a cold, wintery day in NYC, I drove my wheelchair from my law office in the financial district to Beth Israel in Union Square. Frozen to the core and in tremendous facial pain from the cold wind striking my face, I entered the waiting room of the pain management clinic. On a break from work, I arrived in my typical designer suit and shoes, but out of the remaining twenty patients, only one other patient even resembled me. The waiting room was filled with typical looking addicts waiting in line for their next fix. Their hair was uncombed, their bodies and clothes were filthy, their bodies exposed from immodest clothing, and their voices were loud and agitated. My chest tightened with anxiety and fear. Is this how I, too, would end up?


The nurse called my name, and I followed her to the examination room with baited breath in the hopes that this doctor could help me fight the cruel pain of trigeminal neuralgia (“TN” also known as “the suicide disease” because 50% of patients kill themselves from the unbearable pain). As we approached the room, I dodged a doctor-patient altercation. Screaming, the patient insisted on more drugs. The doctor, unphased by her patient’s behavior, retorted, “absolutely not! Your last prescription should not be empty already. Please leave.” After earning a BBA and JD, I never thought I’d be going to the same doctors/drug dealers as junkies.

Unfortunately, the appointment made my future seem even grimmer. After being on 26 different non-opioid drug therapies, trying hypnotism, medical massage, cupping, Chinese medicine and acupuncture, as well as a failed open craniotomy, my options were few and discouraging. I could try another anti-convulsant, but chances were, it wouldn’t help the pain and would turn me into a zombie. So, I chose, with the doctor’s advice, to go on a long-term regiment of Percocet. 

While it took the edge off of my suffering, even the opioids couldn’t eliminate my pain. The pain was so intense that neighbors often heard me screaming and would come to my rescue. I would regularly be forced to run to the doctor’s office on deposition lunch breaks for injections of Toredol, a non-opioid powerful anti-inflammatory, just to have the ability to mouth the word “objection.” Ultimately, I had gamma knife brain radiation, where a halo was screwed into my skull while conscious, to blast the nerve. In addition to gamma knife, I also subject myself to bimonthly nerve blocks through my skull. However, with all of these procedures and desperate attempts to eliminate my pain, I am still forced to take a daily opioid regiment. 

Before becoming ill with TN, I never used controlled substances. In truth, I abhorred the sensation of being high. I felt my brain was being fried like the eggs on those “just say no” commercials of the 90s. And a family member’s opioid overdose in 1997, caused by his doctor’s failure to properly treat his cluster migraines, was devastating enough to deter me from ever experimenting. 

I have since learned that, when used to fight pain, opioids don’t cause a high. Rather, they level out our body’s pain receptors and assist in returning the body to its intended state of calm, lowering our elevated heart rates and raising our blood pressure to normal healthy levels. For me, taking an oxycodone is the difference between being rushed to the emergency room and remaining in my bed, rocking back and forth in a fetal position with boiling rags applied to my face until the pain is ameliorated. 

Daily opioids provide an effective method to combat pain in chronic pain sufferers. Yet, time and again, we are accused of being addicts and interrogated like criminals by everyone from pharmacists and doctors to our politicians and the media. Even when Prince passed away after suffering from chronic pain and epilepsy, the media smeared him as an addict because he had a bottle of narcotics on him. In reality, chronic pain sufferers are forced into opioid dependence and then shamed for it.

The issue has become so politicized that politicians like Bernie Sanders tell those in agony to do yoga and guided meditation to ease our suffering. The sheer insinuation that yoga or guided meditation would help a war veteran with phantom pain from an amputation is insulting and only demonstrates an utter ignorance on the issue. Politicians do not need to deprive us of the medication we need because of the few who can’t follow the established regulations. 

Narcotics dependence isn’t something, which only affects the homeless, criminals, musicians, artists and junkies, like those I saw and feared at the pain clinic. This dependence takes prisoner those with chronic pain, like myself, war veterans, or those with such deep emotional pain that, they, too, seek relief. As much as opioids have saved me from ending my own life out of desperation, it has just as easily ruined my life, whether it be from liver damage, severe withdrawal or exacerbated pain. No one chooses this life. I would do anything to flush my pain killers. But, for now, I have no other option. 

So, to all those politicians who ignorantly tell chronic pain sufferers to strike the lotus pose the next time we’re in pain and accuse us of being addicts, let me be clear: Keep your uninformed opinions to yourself. We aren’t addicts. We’re survivors.